Sunday, July 20, 2014

Sweat and Blood


Sweat dripped down my back steadily as I focused my gaze strait forward into the field directly in front of me. The largest fly I have ever seen was buzzing disturbingly close to my right ear; I tried not to flinch. We stood like statues in the short grass: four Americans in red berets and crisp ACU uniforms standing at Parade Rest. It smelled like hay and horse manure and my feet felt numb.

The man at the microphone, standing next to a granite grave stone, stood refined and elegant in his tan dress uniform decorated with medals I will never know the names of. At first site, as he shook my hand and said, “Welcome my American friends,” he reminded me strangely of Uncle Kelvin.

Then the music started, blaring from a speaker somewhere behind me. I didn’t recognize the song, but I quickly understood the meaning as the Lithuanian lieutenant next to me spoke firmly yet softly.

“Attention!” and then, “Salute.”

I slowly raised my right arm to a 90 degree angle and brought my hand upwards till my index finger touched the edge my beret.  I looked across the small field and could make out 12 retired Lithuanian Navy officers, all far past their prime, raising their wrinkled hands in salute with me. An old retired army general, probably over 80 years old, had managed to feebly stand from his wooden chair, leaving his crutches lying in the grass. I am an American, but a sharp twinge of emotion shot through my heart as I held my salute knowing what these men stood for. Engraved on the granite stone that stood just to my left were these words:

Kardo Rinktines Partizanas

Pranas Koncius 1965.07.13

Zuvo Kiliskes

drungilu sodyboje

The marker stands where the last resistance fighter in our quarter of Lithuania was shot and killed inside his farmstead home in 1965. His name was Pranas Koncius. He resisted communism.  He resisted the Soviet Union. He resisted to his death the forces that were taking his liberty and country. He was the very last one.

The song ended and I lowered my salute. The man in the tan uniform continued. He was the Lithuanian Minister of Defense. He spoke in Lithuanian for a time, and then without warning broke into almost perfect English.

“And to my American friends,” he said, the small crowd listening intently, “We thank you. Thank you for coming here to our country, to train with us and stand with us. We have fought together in Europe and Afghanistan and we stand together now.  This is exactly what we hoped for and what we need. Thank you.”

I don’t know very much about why I train from day to day in the sun—letting sweat soak my back—and risk my life jumping out of airplanes and desperately miss my dear wife and children, but I know that standing with those men on the grass in Lithuania that day means more to these Lithuanian people than I can possibly understand.

Sunday, July 6, 2014

Lenin Lying down and the Ghost of Klaipeda


I know what you’re thinking. You're thinking there is more to that story, that maybe I should tell you about how I landed after jumping off the helicopter and how I shook the hand of the President of Lithuania, Dalia Grabauskaite. I might save that for another day. Tonight, its history and ghosts. Make sure you leave the lights on.

After getting home from jump day, I was exhausted. I barely remember my head touching the pillow. My body hurt all over. I blinked and it was morning.

For the first time since coming to Lithuania, the whole Troop got out of the barracks. We headed to old town for a guided tour. Our bus stopped just outside the old square and we all spilled onto the cobblestone streets like the bunch of soldier we are. And there was our tour guide: a tall slender woman in her 50s that wore white parachute pants and a matching button shirt. Her English was workable, although heavily accented. It took effort to listen, but it was worth the extra work. It turns out, there are sorts of things about this part of the world that I never knew. Surprise!

Imagine this:

You are born in a country that is no longer your own. The city that you live in was once grand, but now it is mostly rubble. The shell of a burned out church—its steeple a pile of loose bricks—is all that remains of the beacon that shone like a lighthouse for sailors searching for shore.  Instead of pleasant homes and rolling countryside, austere apartments, colored dead grey, mark every block.  Soldiers march through the streets wearing soviet uniforms. If they catch you speaking your language, you might go to jail or worse.  If you can’t speak Russian, you have to work the underground market to get your food and water.  It was communism at its finest.  This was the life of our tour guide as child living in occupied Lithuania.  Her name was Anita.

If those circumstances were not enough, the occupying Russians set up a huge statue of Vladimir Lenin in downtown Klaipeda.  It replaced a smaller monument that portrayed a little girl in a Sunday dress.  But Lithuania’s innocence was stolen by a deadly master.  Lenin watched over the broken town of Klaipeda with an ever present gaze.

The fact that this situation is nothing new for historic Lithuania is the saddest part of all.  First it was the Vikings, then the Teutonic Knights, then the Germans, then the Russians, then the Nazis, and finally the Soviets. Each group laid claim to Klaipeda backed up by the sword or the gun.  But Lenin would fail, communism failed, and in 1992, Lithuania was the first Soviet Republic to declare independence from Moscow.  Lithuania was free.

While we walked down the cobble-stone streets with Anita, you could almost feel the torture that Lithuania has endured.  Anita, with her country, is recovering—as if from an abusive or dysfunctional home.  She works in London and comes back home to Klaipeda for the summer because she loves her homeland.  The economy still struggles with chains of a terrible history. 

“You can see the buildings on this street,” she said to me in her thickly accented English, “When I was a child, all of these buildings were grey.  Tanks drove through the streets and bomb shelters marked the street corners.”  Everyone from her generation speaks Russian. It was a matter of survival.  Still, despite all efforts to destroy the Lithuanian language, it survived. Proud of that survival, Anita beamed as she continued.

“You see these nice buildings?  Everything is changing in Klaipeda. 10 years ago, these streets were ugly and run down.  Whore houses were turned into coffee shops and night clubs became industry.  The port was rebuilt and Klaipeda is becoming a city again.”  You could feel the optimism behind her words.  Then we reached an empty lot marked with short hedges in a rectangular patter.  “In five years time,” Anita told us, “the people of Klaipeda will reconstruct the old Lutheran church that stood as symbol of Klaipeda for so long.  Sailors will once again see the light of the steeple piercing through the coastal clouds out into the Baltic Sea.”  She wasn’t finished.

We walked from the old church site to a small square on the south side of old town.  The buildings surrounding the square were plain. Nothing special. 

“When Lithuania declared independence,” Anita said, the Soviets left 4 tanks to guard Lenin’s statue day and night.”  She wasn’t angry; she spoke her words precisely, keeping her emotions at bay. “They wanted to provoke an incident, an excuse to reoccupy our country.” It never happened.

In 1993 the tanks left, the last communist foothold in all of Lithuania.  The citizens of Klaipeda let out a long sigh of relief and headed for the square.  Down came Vladimir Lenin, with his ever watching gaze; down come communism, never to rise again.  They dragged his statue into the square where we stood, on the south side of old town, and left him lying down.  For an entire year, People from all over Lithuania made the journey to Klaipeda, walked through old town to the square, and looked at the lifeless statue of the communist supreme leader: Lenin lying down.

*****

I almost forgot about the Ghost of Klaipeda!  The legend goes something like this: a long time ago in old town Klaipeda, the soldiers and sailors of Lithuania were spending a day off in town.  Sometimes on the coast, the fog creeps up onto the docks and into the streets of the city.  Back then, the lamps lining the streets would only burn into the night so long before darkness had her way.  One soldier, walking near the harbor, noticed something strange out in the water.  As it rose up, it began to take shape—almost human but with no face or legs.

The figure slowly emerged out of the water and climbed up onto the docks, water dripping from a dark cloak hanging about its strange shape.  The soldier was terrified. The thing began to speak.

“Soon there will be famine in the land,” it said with a hiss. “Prepare, prepare for the day when food will be scarce.”  Then, without further adieu, the ghost slipped off the dock and back into the water. The soldier, horrified, ran to the church inside of town and told the priest everything he had seen.  The priest believed him and the town was saved from a long famine the actually did plague the land for a time.  Although the statue that now sits on the dock in Klaipeda is a little creepy looking, they call him “The Good Ghost of Klaipeda” for saving the town. 

So sleep well tonight knowing that ghosts, at least on this side of the Atlantic, are as good as gold, and the real monster of Vladimir Lenin and communism has yet to recover from his place lying on the ground.

 

 

 


Friday, July 4, 2014

Jump Day

***This is not a story, this is my life.  My only hope is that the words I write will help draw those I love closer to our Father in Heaven through showing how truely merciful He really is.***

Today.

My whole body was shaking from my helmet down through my boots. Even the ground shook with deep vibrations that seemed to shake my inner soul.  The chute on my back tugged at my spine, my shoulders burned from the pain of the harness digging into my collarbones.  I looked over at Johnson and grinned. 


“Did you ever think you’d grow up and jump off a helicopter into a Lithuanian swamp?”  He smiled and shook his head. I could tell he could barely hear me over the sound of the spinning rotor.
“No, Sir,” he said, “never.”

The grass below me withered and danced against the hurricane force winds that blasted from the chopper and I suddenly realized I was very, very cold.  My uniform was wet from the rain and the single strap that stretched across the door holding us in was sopping wet.  My arms were soaked. 

My feet, dangling out the side of the bird, suddenly felt a shift. Then lift off.  The ground sunk below us as if in slow motion.  I could see the other Blackhawks getting smaller—we were the first chalk—then the tops of the trees--then we were off. 
 
The jump master yelled over the sound of the bird: “We’re going to do a dry run.”  I nodded in response and tried to adjust my chin strap that holds down my ACH (combat helmet).  Somehow while boarding, my strap had become crooked; I worried that when I jumped, I’d lose the helmet altogether.  At one thousand feet, child like awe took over my whole being.  The Curonian lagoon, stretching south towards Kaliningrad,  was separated from the Baltic sea by only a thin peninsula.  It had a deep green/blue sheen, reflecting off the water.  The Baltic sea, from the angle I was at, rose seamlessly into the clouds, as if the sea stretched into heaven. At 1500 feet I could see Klaipeda, with all of its seaside cranes and soviet era apartments. About half-way around the DZ (drop zone), I heard the jump master again.

“6 minutes!” he yelled.  The jumpers echoed his words.

“6 minutes!”

I gave a thumbs up to SGT Rakas, the Lithuanian recon scout sitting on my right.  He spoke decent English, but over the constant thumping of the aircraft, I was certain he wouldn’t hear me.  He returned my odd American gesture with a wide Lithuanian grin. 

“1 minute,” yelled the jump master. 

My heart was pounding.  I could see little white specs on the lagoon.  What are those?  Are they ducks?  People?  Geese.

“30 seconds!”

There was a small boat.  Only one.  They would pick us up if the wind pushed us too far west on the DZ. 
“Sound off for equipment check!”
I went through the routine, the same as I have done a hundred times.  *Helmet*, *chin strap*, *chest strap*, *left and right leg strap*.  I touched each one as I said the words to ensure the harness was still adjusted correctly on my now aching body.  I put my hands palm down on the floor to prepare to jump.

“Get Ready,” said the jump master, then,  “Stand by!”

Suddenly I saw it, a huge orange ‘H’ marking the edge of the DZ actual.  I heard the jump master yelling behind me as he reached out and hit each jumper's helmet. 

“go……."
"go……."
"go......”
I saw Rakas push himself up and out of the bird, his body falling quickly down and away, out of site.

“Go!” said the jump master as he hit the back of my helmet.  I lifted my body, with all of my attached equipment, off the floor of the Blackhawk and thrust myself forward—out—into the air. 

Quiet.